The truth is, you are not Satan's until you officially die. That is why you have thought about killing yourself so much. He wants you dead so you can go to Hell forever. Your Father in Heaven loves you unconditionally, He wants you to come home. Don't worry about what you have done, Jesus took care of that on the cross for you. Just believe that he did this for you and you will be forgiven.
We love you and are praying for you in the powerful name of Jesus Christ to break the chains of Satan over you, so you can live in Jesus Christ's power and strength, which is superior compared to Satan's power. Do you want proof? Just use His name over you right now, say out loud,"Save me Jesus Christ," the demons will run and flee. You might need to fight to say it in your mind first before your mouth will let you. "Save me Jesus Christ!" Satan isn't the powerful one is he? He is weak and defeated compared to the Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Jesus is the King of Kings and Lord of Lord's and nothing Satan does can ever change that.
Visit our forgiveness section and watch the videos there. Enjoy the true life you can only find in Jesus Christ! Thanks for reading and keep saying "Save me Jesus Christ!" as you war against the powers of darkness that are fighting against you. Jesus will be there and he will help you. We love you!